Posting!!!!!

ok...this is the last thing i'm posting tonight...I think...I make no promises!!!!!


I'm freakin worried as heck!!!!

So you all know about the "roger wants to commit suicide" thing...well, as i said earlier i talked him out of it...i think. I was on the phone with him all night, i couldnt bare to leave him. It broke my heart when he told me what he was going to do. For those of you who dont know, Roger and i went out a while back, and we've stayed in touch...he's one of my best friends...i love him to death.
So last night, he tested me saying that he was done with everything. I texted him back imidiatly. I told him that i couldnt bare to lose him. not now. not ever. all he said was goodbye. i called him. i begged. i cried. it took me 45minutes to convince him to wait, and another hour to convince him not to do it. he promised he wouldnt, but i smartly stayed on the phone with him anyway. i think we were up until about four in the morning.

So then this morning when i finally dragged myself out of bed (i felt like i had a freakin hangover -yeah, i know what those feel like - ) i texted him...and he still hasnt texted me back...im worried....